Lately I have been thinking a lot about the pace of the universe, where everyone is going or coming from somewhere. Not just in the literal sense. Anyone who is or has been a stay at home parent, knows how suddenly time stops still, but everyone around you still keeps on going 110mph. And I must admit, at times I did get stressed out over it.
As I have previously written, one of my new years resolutions was to “live in the moment”. I have knowingly tried to do so and appreciate the small things. I have tried to put the phone down more often just to cherish what is happening around me. I think we all should learn from children, who will stop to look at the same things over and over again. A little persons perception is such a wonderful thing.
One of the main things that stressed me out was, if I had to leave the house early in the morning. All the packing and getting dressed sometimes took so long that I knew we were going to miss the first 5 minutes of music class. Something that I have changed to make the situation better is work on my time management. Getting G dressed straigt after breakfast, packing the bag early (as opposed to doing so right before having to leave the house and not being able to find object X) and planning ahead in general. But the most important change that I have made was changing my attitude; It really is not that bad if we actually miss the first few minutes of a class or if I have to take the next bus to town.
Cherishing the moment is probably the most important thing to do in this stage of my life. Seeing G grow and change every day, I feel privileged to be experiencing it first hand. Of course there are days when I secretly (or not so secretly) envy the mothers who can drop their children off at daycare and wear white (or eat their lunch while its still hot or use the toilet without an audience) for the rest of the day.
A while ago I was talking to an old friend and thinking if I should go to work and how to balance work and family. My friends answer was something like “You should concentrate on your career while you are young and still can”. At that point I realized, that I also had moved on, not neccesarily in the same direction as my working friends, but I wasnt in the same place as “pre baby”. After our conversation I couldn’t help but shrug and think “you obviously are not a parent”.